Priorities

I loved my internal medicine rotation. Did really well in it too. Loved my family medicine rotation, did really well in that too coincidentally. I was recommended for a career in both, nominated for prizes and everything.

The hard part is deciding what kind of life I want. I have a feeling I'd be happiest in family medicine. You want to know why I hesitate going into family? I wonder if I'd ever be good enough at it; jack of all trades, master of none. Part of me is attracted to being an internist and being "god of the hospital" as one of my residents once described rural internal medicine. A part of me would feel safer knowing more about less things. There's a bit of comfort in not having to deal with pediatrics, psychiatry and obs/gyne. But would I lose that sense of whole person care and following families for years? I think I would. I think I like dealing with preventative medicine as well as dealing with really sick people, which leads me to believe that I would be happiest in family medicine.

You know, today, I was outside for two hours. I sat in the sun with some friends from school, enjoyed life. I love my job, but I love having time to do things more. I think I'm tired of passing up opportunities and saying "oh I can't do it, cuz I'm so busy with school."

I don't think that I'll be any less of a clinician if I do family med. I think that it is what you make it and if you want to be good at your job, you can do it in either field.

We'll see where life takes me, but the idea of being a staff in 3 years and setting my own schedule makes the next little while seem all that sweeter

I'm out...